Delayyyy :/

So I just got word from my bishop that we have a problem.... Or I have a problem. Because I either don't really know you (I really would love to meet you though...) or we are super close, Imma get alll personal up in here! lol So about two (and maybe a half) years ago I was working at a hotel the 3PM -11PM shift. Normally I'd get home around 11:30ish, finally fall asleep at 1 AMish and wake up around 1:30PMish to get ready for work.Well one day I was getting in the shower to get ready for work & I was feeling super dizzy. I started to walk to my sisters room & I straight blacked out right there butt naked! lol I'm totally kidding I had my towel on. I got up fully aware of what happened, went down to my sister Fah and told her what happened. My theory was I slept too much and didn't eat enough. Normally I ate at work because it was FREE(: So using my professional opinion I didn't go see a doctor (& if your poly I'm sure you know that don't really count as a reason to go to the doctors or "use money") and I just went back to bed. Than it happened again a couple of different times (last time was in May 2011)& still I didn't want to go to the doctors (because now it was cuttin into my personal account..lol) I noticed though it was always when I was on my period. Made a mental note of that & moved on. When I was filling out my papers I did make note on the medical portion about what happens to me. Sooo of course now I'm getting a physical & the doctor has to make sure it won't be something that might affect my chances of going. As you might have read before I was healthy so the doctor signed his life away. He told me all my blood work was normal and the only other reason that was happening to me was because I was loosing too much blood and I was getting dehydrated. He told me to drink lots of water especially during that time of the month. Welllll now that you know that story I can tell you this one. The stake President emailed my bishop & told him that the church office needs more information from my doctor about the seriousness of the situation. Soooo I have to call my doctor and see if he can write a letter saying he promises I won't die (fingers crossed) because of it. lol Than I send it to the stake who will fax it to the church office & than I wait some more for my call. I just hope I get it done befor general conference and our stake conference the week after because I'm sure the church gets super busy during that time.

Well wish me luck.

<3NancyPamela'Otukolo

Right place?

If Satan wasn't testing me before he sure is now! I went to support my bruhh Fish Bate at his concert on Friday and after I left I felt like that wasn't a very good choice. It wasn't at a club but it had the same feel as a club. You know, drunks, skanks, "tough" guys... all those annoying people under one roof. Well with drunks comes drama right? RiGHT! I didn't think it would be towards me but it was. You know when your so mad you can't think, you don't wanna listen to anything anyone has to say and you just want to cry? Well that's exactly how I felt & some! So much was going through my head. Should I pour her drink on her, should I slap her? Push her? Something mean so I can feel better!? But I'm glad someone held me back so I can actually use my head. While I was debating which mean thing to do back to her, every other thought was, Your almost getting your calling, your representing the church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints, you care about her family, your bruhh just on stage, your better than her! And I stepped back to my spot, wiped the tear that almost came down, smiled, and continued dancing. That was a HUGE test for me! (I'm getting teary-eyed) I'm extremely grateful the spirit remained with me even though I was at a place I should not have gone to in the first place. I was with the girls I was with for a reason (Love you Kess) to help me remember I have a bigger purpose in life & That I am better than to do the same things that were done to me. Although I'm still soo hurt by all of it and wish things with us were different, I'm just going to move on... Or try to. The Lord knows exactly what we're going through & what we need. Today I my primary lesson was on Forgiving others! Annoying right? lol It was soo hard to teach this lesson when I still haven't fully (or even a little) forgiven this person. I know I will eventually but for now I'm going to keep praying to be humble & to soften my heart. <3NancyPamela'Otukolo