Delayyyy :/

So I just got word from my bishop that we have a problem.... Or I have a problem. Because I either don't really know you (I really would love to meet you though...) or we are super close, Imma get alll personal up in here! lol So about two (and maybe a half) years ago I was working at a hotel the 3PM -11PM shift. Normally I'd get home around 11:30ish, finally fall asleep at 1 AMish and wake up around 1:30PMish to get ready for work.Well one day I was getting in the shower to get ready for work & I was feeling super dizzy. I started to walk to my sisters room & I straight blacked out right there butt naked! lol I'm totally kidding I had my towel on. I got up fully aware of what happened, went down to my sister Fah and told her what happened. My theory was I slept too much and didn't eat enough. Normally I ate at work because it was FREE(: So using my professional opinion I didn't go see a doctor (& if your poly I'm sure you know that don't really count as a reason to go to the doctors or "use money") and I just went back to bed. Than it happened again a couple of different times (last time was in May 2011)& still I didn't want to go to the doctors (because now it was cuttin into my personal account..lol) I noticed though it was always when I was on my period. Made a mental note of that & moved on. When I was filling out my papers I did make note on the medical portion about what happens to me. Sooo of course now I'm getting a physical & the doctor has to make sure it won't be something that might affect my chances of going. As you might have read before I was healthy so the doctor signed his life away. He told me all my blood work was normal and the only other reason that was happening to me was because I was loosing too much blood and I was getting dehydrated. He told me to drink lots of water especially during that time of the month. Welllll now that you know that story I can tell you this one. The stake President emailed my bishop & told him that the church office needs more information from my doctor about the seriousness of the situation. Soooo I have to call my doctor and see if he can write a letter saying he promises I won't die (fingers crossed) because of it. lol Than I send it to the stake who will fax it to the church office & than I wait some more for my call. I just hope I get it done befor general conference and our stake conference the week after because I'm sure the church gets super busy during that time.

Well wish me luck.

<3NancyPamela'Otukolo

Right place?

If Satan wasn't testing me before he sure is now! I went to support my bruhh Fish Bate at his concert on Friday and after I left I felt like that wasn't a very good choice. It wasn't at a club but it had the same feel as a club. You know, drunks, skanks, "tough" guys... all those annoying people under one roof. Well with drunks comes drama right? RiGHT! I didn't think it would be towards me but it was. You know when your so mad you can't think, you don't wanna listen to anything anyone has to say and you just want to cry? Well that's exactly how I felt & some! So much was going through my head. Should I pour her drink on her, should I slap her? Push her? Something mean so I can feel better!? But I'm glad someone held me back so I can actually use my head. While I was debating which mean thing to do back to her, every other thought was, Your almost getting your calling, your representing the church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints, you care about her family, your bruhh just on stage, your better than her! And I stepped back to my spot, wiped the tear that almost came down, smiled, and continued dancing. That was a HUGE test for me! (I'm getting teary-eyed) I'm extremely grateful the spirit remained with me even though I was at a place I should not have gone to in the first place. I was with the girls I was with for a reason (Love you Kess) to help me remember I have a bigger purpose in life & That I am better than to do the same things that were done to me. Although I'm still soo hurt by all of it and wish things with us were different, I'm just going to move on... Or try to. The Lord knows exactly what we're going through & what we need. Today I my primary lesson was on Forgiving others! Annoying right? lol It was soo hard to teach this lesson when I still haven't fully (or even a little) forgiven this person. I know I will eventually but for now I'm going to keep praying to be humble & to soften my heart. <3NancyPamela'Otukolo

Waiting.

So obviously I don't get the process lol but my papers are officially in. As in the church authorities have it and are deciding where they will send me in this world to help share our amazing Gospel. I went in and spoke to Stake President Kinikini on Tuesday Aug. 23 and from that moment on I had no doubt in my mind this is exactly what I need to being doing at this time. And I can't let anything or anyone get in my way. Our stake president has such an amazing spirit when he talks I did not wanna leave his office but he had a long line. (Elder Kalama Molisi returned home that day and was getting released.) But before I left he told me they were submitting them that night and it will take from two to three weeks til I receive my call. Which is actually a week or two away from today! CRAZY right?? I'm just ready to get out there and share what I've learned to love and believe in about the Church of Latter Day Saints. I'm extremely grateful to be apart of it and what better way to show how grateful I am than by sharing it? <3NancyPamela'Otukolo

Rough out.

So I gotta admit I was totally dreading going to Girls camp when I found out that the girls in our ward will be moved to other wards and that we would get a bunch of girls from all the other wards. It's not like I didn't like the Young Women in the other wards, I was just thinking about how our Cannon 2nd girls are sooo easy to please. We could sit around and talk to each other the whole time and still go home and say we had a blast! Anyways so I got off work and went straight to the bishops house to get ready to drive up. (I know crack head status!) Anyways we get there and the girls are sitting around talking, makin things for their secret sisters, and eating. Than comes the time to switch I was still annoyed and complained as they were leaving. So I was sitting there waiting and all the new girls come. All quiet except for Pele who came from Parkview ward which is like our sister ward. As we got to know them they were all super sweet. We assigned them into tent with girls we know didn't know each other at all! I mean this camp was about gettin to know each other and what better way to get to know someone than to sleep with them.. Or next to them. Yea that sounds a little more appropriate. lol The good thing for us ward leaders is that the stake planned activities for pretty much all day that we only had to worry about the food! When it came time to sleep I was soo surprised by how many for the girls actually stayed at our ward. Only two of the 16 went back to their wards. Mona & Uinise came up to camp with us as leaders which turned out to be so much help! Not only did I use all of the stuff  Mona packed, I got to know her better(: When it was time to sleep us three were in a tent and we decided we wanted to star gaze than sleep outside of the tent. 

(Kay we are hella pretending to sleep in this picture because when I was sleeping every part of my body was under my blanket because it was freeezzzing all night!)

The next night we had a little award ceremony where we recognized each of the girls for the other wards with an award of something we noticed about them from our short time together. One of the girls got out "Most Hood" award because she actually beat up a girl at camp and went home. lol After all that we had a testimony meeting that was filled with the spirit. We had such amazing girls in our ward I miss them right now! The next night was skit night. We had Samuel the Laminate. For those of you who do not know this story it's about Samuel preaching on the city wall and the city rejects his teaching and mock him. He predicts the three days & nights of darkness and after it happens they have a change of heart. The girls were challenged to think about how that happens now a days & make up a skit from that. They came up with the idea of someone preaching and each of them would act out different trials and temptations  they face everyday. We had the word of wisdom, law of Chastity, gossip, and fighting. Than after the things the person was preaching about comes true they would repent and change. It was so funny & I'm super grateful EVERY single girl participated. 

 

Me & Mona being the GREAT leaders we and eating while the girls do certifications.

Love these headaches:TeleSia,Nancy#2,UiniseT.

Don't hate my 6pack(;

My Tienna Latu who loves me dearly.

Yeah I made that fire all on my own! lol

Over all the camp turned out way better than I expected it too and I'm grateful I had the opportunity to go to girls camp for what might be the last time. I love my original Cannon girls as well as my New Cannon girls better known as the C-Flowers!
<3NancyPamela'Otukolo

They're in.

I know I suck at keeping up with all that is going on but cut me some slack, I'm a busy girl! Lol Well as you can see by the title, something is in. What you might ask? My mission papers(: I've been workin on them for a little over a month and I gotta say I'm glad that part is over! My teeth are in good shape and I am healthy(: I just turned them in yesterday and I'm just waiting for my interview with my (very handsome) stake president! I have got to say preparing all this has been the most difficult time in my life.  I have never felt soo challenged in everything I do, EVER! I even got to a point where I started questioning myself as to why I am going and thinking about the reasons why I am willing to leave the people I love so much for 18 months?  But as I was thinking about everything and everyone else I stopped and thought, what about me? What do I want? How do I feel about a mission? A mission is exactly what I need in my life to make ME better for myself & those same people I love so much! And if they loved me the same way I do, they would understand why I want to go. For those of you who don't know me, I kinda have a big attitude & get annoyed way too easily. lol So this is a perfect way for me to humble myself & learn patience. Not to mention I will be sharing this gospel that I have learned about since birth and believe in without a doubt!
SO my answer is simple. I'm not only doing this for myself & my savior but for my loved ones as well.

(As I'm typing this my coworker, not the same one I complained about in my last post, is talking to me about some Princess I have no clue about and I'm trying super hard not to say "Can't you see I'm busy!?" INHALE. EXHALE.) Kay I'm better! lol

But other than that, all is well(: When I tell people I'm preparing for my mission the first thing they ask is, "Where do you want to go?" I hate answering that because I feel like I'll just jinx myself and end up in the exact opposite place of where I want to go. BUUTTT just for the record I would like to stay in the USofA. Why? I need my KFC! lol For real though! I am very picky when it comes to food. I like fast food & Tongan food. So any place that has those and isn't too cold, I'm happy! (Great now I'm going to end up in some super cold third world country) :/ Anywho now that the papers are in all I have to do is pray everything goes well for this exciting new chapter in my life(:

Tests

If you didn't know I have OFFICIALLY started my missionary papers(: My bishop was not kidding when he told me that Satan will be working his hardest on me starting this time. Since I started this process I've had so many times when I felt like saying, "Never mind, I changed my mind! I'm just gonna stay home & get married!" lol jk to the getting married part. But for real it's getting harder. Satan is really workin on me! I feel like beating my coworker up every night! And I'm always swearing at him in my head, I mean can a person really lack this much common sense? And I have no idea what he says to me half the time because he has a very strong Mexican accent. But than I stop and think that this must be just as frustrating for him as it is for me. I'm supposed to be training him but I keep getting short with him. I've gotten a little better with him, give me a little more time. Than $$$ issues! Ughhhh I think every person I spoke to that was preparing to go on a mish struggled with finances. I have two speeding tickets I totally spaced on paying, a bill from SLCC, and old dentist bill, a new one for all the work that will need to be done, and a fee for getting my licence, (Yes I am still an UN licenced driver.) I am always thinking of ways to pay for all this crap before I have to leave and it's super stressful! Last is with my love Pou I honestly thought he would be my biggest test during this whole process & I never thought he was going to support my decision to go since he isn't a part of my faith. But it turns out he is one of the biggest supporters/help to me. I didn't know that until the other day when we were hanging out. Things can easily turn back to "boyfriend/girlfriend" with us because all the things we have been through together. But before things did he told me he knows how important my mission is to me & he didn't want to mess things up for me. Also he said I will do a great job wherever I go & to make him proud! From that moment I realized he has my back 100% and it's one less "test" I need to worry about.

Other than that things are going great! aha I have my physical tomorrow morning to make sure I'm healthy enough and than I'm still lookin for a cheap/free dentist because I know I have a lot of work that needs to be done. So lemme know if you know of any(: Anyways time to get back to work! I'll keep y'all updated with everything for sure!

Bestest.

Been thinking bout this punk a lot lately might as well blogg bout him... (;

December 12th, 2008

A day I remember bits & parts of. My best friend La'a picked me & two other girlfriends up & were out and about. Than we ended up at some party at her cousins apartment. Kickin' it with all Tongans wasn't my idea of fun because every time I did, a fight would happen or some kind of drama would pop off. Not my idea of fun. But it was so kick back. There was a bunch of guys there & I thought Pou was the cutest one there(: I have a pretty outgoing personality especially with guys so I can make conversation fairly well with guys but Pou was being too cool walking in & out the apartment & kinda being rude to everyone. I remember him walking into the bathroom and didn't shut the door all the way & he was standing in front of the mirror rubbing Vaseline on his arm. (At the time I didn't know but he had just gotten a tattoo.) Me & my friend were cracking up because he was so focused and didn't even notice the door was wide open. By the end of the night we barely made any conversation & most of it was arguing. But than as I was leaving his cousin invited us to his birthday party the next day. Supposedly Pou told my friend La'a to make sure to bring me to the birthday the next day but I still have not yet confirmed this with Pou. aha

December 13th, 2008

We get to the Red Lion Hotel, where the birthday party was at and who do I see when I first walk in?

Pou(: Once again the only good looking guy in the room! aha I told my friend that I walked in with, to make sure she stays with me at all times & don't let me leave with him.That didn't work to well, I spent the rest of that day/night with him talkin, chillin, all that good stuff. He was soo funny & super cute but I think it was that bad boy/over protective attitude he had that really did it for me. He was mean and tough (not to me) but still cute & protective over me just in that one night! When it was time to go home we said our goodbyes and that was that. I didn't even get his number! The hell? lol than finally after idk or remember how long we got in touch and were officially boyfriend&girlfriend on January 1st, 2009.

Rest of my life.

It has been such a roller coaster ride with him. We are so different, idk how we did it sometimes. I love dancing & he rather not. He likes to play pool & bowl and I can careless about doing that. He's Methodist & I'm LDS. He is more quiet and nice & I'm loud and mean. Two things we both agreed on though was we enjoyed each others company(: && we love eating out! lol Its been a great and hard two years together. I've never felt more comfortable being myself with anyone else but him. No one knows what will happen between us in the next year or two, not even us. But I do know that I love him and am extremely glad I met him.

Our first movie together.

One of our MANY trips to betos off of redwood & 32ish aka "Our betos"

(They always get my burrito right.)

After our friends wedding.

He promised to take me to lagoon. Well I kinda threatened him to..
Ehhh we both had a blast!